I believe there is so much power in the stories we tell ourselves about who we are. Just to kick things off I wanted to share that for the last few weeks I have not been feeling well and was going through a flare-up, however, I committed to eating healthy and doing all the things I try to do to help my body. I think what made it so much harder was I wasn’t sleeping well at all for the past few weeks which isn’t something that I struggle with and my anxiety levels have been really bad, on top of that my pulsatile tinnitus has been relentless – making trying to fall asleep even harder.
“Your body hears everything your mind says.”
Naomi Judd
Last night I could feel myself spiraling as I was desperate for one good night’s sleep, especially after not sleeping at all the night before. I tried breathing, and I even tried meditating, but nothing was working and my anxiety levels were rising making my tinnitus even louder. Then suddenly I thought to myself, maybe the reason why my body is reacting this way is that on some unconscious level I’m fighting myself. My whole ethos is to be loving and kind to myself but on a deeper level, I have disconnected from my ‘sick’ body, especially as I feel exhausted from trying to heal these past 8 years and feel worse instead of feeling better. I wake up wishing I stop feeling this way, wishing to go back to a time I never even knew what an autoimmune was. It was such a deep realisation and I had to be honest with myself.
So in that instance as I lay in bed I began telling myself how much I love myself, I love my body, my body is beautiful and amazing, and all my cells are working for my benefit in a happy healthy body. I kept repeating it over and over again and I couldn’t believe it but my anxiety started to get better and my tinnitus finally relented. How powerful we actually are and how sensitive our bodies are to what we feed it physically and more importantly mentally.
